oh well.
A divs are over.
i am a bit of sad,
disappointed,
and every other feeling that
comes along with that.
I dont wanna point fingers,
as i have a part to play too.
and finally i realise,
even blaming doesnt give me
any reason to rejoice or be glad
that my skills are still evident.
i guess....
i just feel kind of numb.
like dont really wanna care anymore.
just dont wanna think either.
its seems now a while after that
nothing much seems important anymore.
i know i have to start mugging soon,
that i have to start to catch up
with what i missed earlier.
but for the time being,
i dont feel like doing anything.
i feel content with being numb,
not wanting to care about anything
at the moment.
i'm still functioning as normal in sch.
but it seems...
like a part of me is missing,
like a part of me just died
without me knowing.
for once,
i miss training.
i miss the confidence i feel in shooting,
that i can never seem to
muster outside cca.
i miss the people i used to see so much
more than even my classmates.
oh well.
must mug.
must get over this soon.
JIA YOU!
-broken dreams-
